Wednesday, January 21, 2009

A Week Later...

And I still feel like crap.

Oh well, guess I'll have to deal

I can't shake the feeling of utter disappointment that I am a complete failure and severely below average. I blame my mother for telling me that I was smarter, putting me in honors classes, setting the bar extremely high.

Well, I'm not above average. I've come to that conclusion. I am mediocre, and I think there is nothing worse in the world.

On that note, thanks to Cara and LUPEC for a lovely evening out. Someday we will be able to go shopping (at used and NOT used clothing stores), have dinner, and maybe meet for a pedi the next morning. Soon my dear, things will change.

Club banger of the year says Kelsey....


Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Is this the complaint department?

For my own venting purposes I will now outline exactly WHY today pissed me off.

1. I had a bad dream this morning AFTER my alarm went off meaning a few things...

--I woke up later than I intended
--I woke up with a headache feeling stressed out, mad, sad and incredibly annoyed I dreamt what I dreamt in the first place. I mean really? Seriously brain? Can we just get over it already please! thanks.
--I slept on my stomach which I never do which caused my old lady back to be so stiff I couldn't even bend over to wash my face without wincing in pain

2. I didn't make any cash tips last night so I had to use my only $10 to buy gas and didn't have any money to buy food. Deathwish came through and bought me lunch but I didn't eat anything healthy and now feel like crapola.

3. I left work early to attend the House of Blues job fair, hoping to acquire a serving position at a place that will surely be busy and rake in the old dough I need, love and miss. There was no traffic (yay), I got a parking spot directly in front of the building where it was taking place (yay) but when I walked up to the line I asked "does the line start here?" and some dickface shithead said "line's closed sorry." to which I responded "I thought it was open til 7" (it was a lil after 530). A much nicer (and larger) gentlemen let me know that the HOB people only had the room til 7pm and it was taking them a long time to process the applicants so they closed the line down a few minutes before. Fail. I cried as soon as I got in my car. (I am a GIANT baby...apparently)

4. It's cold as shit outside. A whopping 19 degrees and falling does not make me want to smile.

I feel like there are more than four reasons why I'm so agitated, but I guess that is it.

Redeeming qualities of today:

Homeade Vegan Peanut Butter Cookies courtesy of Marcus
Our Tea Collection
The Lewd Acts podcast
Patsy the maintenence Irishman coming to CAULK the holes in the entire house so that no more cute lil mice can come in and scare the crap out of me.

...somehow that isn't enough

I'm going to just watch this over and over and over and over

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Little Bit..

hands down
i'm too proud for love
but with eyes shut
it's you i'm thinking of

Friday, January 9, 2009

Cold World...

Has a blog now.
Should be funny and interesting.

Here is a link.

Photos to follow.